The day has finally arrived

THURSDAY 3 APRIL 2008

Ok, my pre-monologue jitters took me by surprise. I met up with Pritina way before the class began and we just sat outside and talked about how things might turn out. I was feeling ok, not too nervous. We ran through my monologue just one more time, and also through Elizabeth's and Anshu's. We've all got our work to pat, it's just a matter of performing it right and getting the marks we're all aiming for.

Apete came in early and reminded us that monologue presentations begin at 4.30pm and we'd all have to draw numbers to see who performs first. I picked the number 5 before me is Siteri. Now, to be honest, I was feeling pretty calm and confident in my ability to do justice to my character. The only hint of how nervous i was feeling came from how bad i was coughing. I mean, my throat was dry and with the air conditioning on, it just made it worse... i was coughing badly! Even when i drank water, my throat still felt dry. damn it!

Pretty soon, it was my turn. Now, i never said this yesterday but as part of my costume, i had to take off my glasses to complete the look, which was totally fine with me because it made it sooo much easier for me to not look at the crowd but focus more on a range of spots so i can feel more relaxed in my character.

It was amazing to me how once i started, i flowed through with my thoughts and my lines just came naturally to mind, even my blocking was good! Stepping into the spotlight, i realised how far i had actually come from when i first started working on this monologue and i've come to appreciate the work that my director put into shaping me and working through the roughness of my character. Even the support of my friends and fellow group members helped a lot!!!

Once i had finished my monologue, the applause i received at the end made me feel like i was on top of the world. But now that obstacle was cleared, my only worry was how much i would receive from Apete and Ian for my performance.

Once again, my fingers are crossed for a favourable response.